Are My Symptoms a Sign of OCD? PLEASE HELP?
I become upset/depressed/overwhelmed/agitated when certain physical objects are not perfect. For example, I had a brand new microwave and my little cousin but tin foil in it and as a result there are black burn marks inside. When I clean it, the everything is perfectly clean and white, expect the burn marks. I then get frustrated and upset.
Another bigger example is as a result of a sexual assault I got ******* warts and had them treated…..I have a deformed outer *****….and it makes me physically sick to look at it. I remember how before my vaginal area was “perfect.” However, I know deep down that it does not matter becuase I am not sexually active and don’t plan to have *** until marriage. And my husband probably won’t be examing my ******** anyway and if he loves me he won’t care. Yet, I still get so depressed thinking about it.
I also had a beautiful antique table and accidentally left a wet rag on it. It removed the finish in a small circle and the table just isn’t the same to me. It is not perfect.
Also, I picked up 5 pamphlets from my counslers office on various topics. I was certain to make sure they were all kept like-new as I was reading them. Because they are all in a set, it would bother me if one was damaged and not the others. However, if an item, such as a book/pamphlet is not in a set, then I don’t mind if it gets minor damage such as bent corners. However, when it is in a set, it has to be perfect.
Also, when I see a row of pamphelts (for example, at the doctors office) I am compelled to grab all of them. It just feels “incomplete” if I don’t gather one. I think “what if there is some valuable information or product that I am missing” I always do this quickly because I am embarassed if the doctor sees me grabbing so many pamphlets.
I think I have “all or nothing” thinking when it comes to damaged objects. The microwave is worthless and so is the antique table because they are damaged. And logically I know that they still have a ltof worth and probably my guests won’t see the mark on the table bc I ccover it with a decorative object, yet it still bothers me.
PLEASE HELP. What is the name of my conditon? Is it OCD? How do I cure myself? I am sick of being depressed about my ********.
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